Although i'm not there always remember i'll always be thinking of you..
It's weird how i love you this much although we just got together..
I'll be back every Sunday..
I hope..
Even if i don't i'll still love you as much before..
You'll be waiting for me to come back right? =')
I'll try to get sleep when i'm there..
And i'll try not to cry as much..
I promise.. =)

And you don't have to worry about me dear..
I'll take care of myself..
And i hope you will too..
Remember drink loads of water..
Your cough never seem to go away..
And And..
Everytime when you sneeze..
It's me missing you! =)
And don't cry too much dear..
Your eyes becoming smaller everytime you do..
And don't always rub your eyes too!

Even if you do cry..
Get rid of all the stupid things your thinking of..
Cause it all isn't true..
I still love you..
And stick to your butt already =P
I have the doll with me..
So i'll be sleeping with a piece of you when i'm there.. =)
I'll kiss it every night..
Hoping somehow the kisses would be MAGICALLY felt by you... =P
I just hope you'll be safe and sound while i'm not around..
Hope you think of me..
And my sua tu-ness =P

I hope you'll be here when i'm back..
To tell me everything that happened in 3 months..
Just in case i can't be back every Sunday..
I just wanna say..
I LOVE YOU HONEY!
With lots of kisses and huggies =')

P.S: I bet daling crying now..But smile dear..For me okie?Smile smile.. =)

He looked at her and her eyes start to water..
She's gonna miss that look for a while..
In two days..
She'll be off to somewhere she doesn't want to go..
She spent the day with him..
But a day just doesn't seem enough..
She kept stealing glances at him when he wasn't noticing..
Wandering what's going through his mind..
Time seemed to pass really fast when she was with him..
No matter how much she wanted time to pause that moment..
It just wouldn't..
It just went by..

They went for dinner..
Talked and laughed..
A huge smile was plastered on his face the whole day..
The cute smile she will miss..

Then it was time to go...
Stopped at a random place near her place and took pictures..
Smiles everywhere..
She looked at the clock and her heart felt heavy..
She wished hard,time would pause that moment...
And then he said those 3 words..

*****

"I love you...."

*****

When she got down from the car..
Her footsteps were heavy..
Each one refusing to step further from him..
Her eyes started to water again..
She held onto the necklace he gave her..
His heart will always be with her..
Then through the tears a smile lit up..
What he said ringed in her head the whole day..
She knew how much he meant it..
And all she wanted him to know..
She feels the same too..

"I love you too..."=)

Happie New Year everyone..
(=
Seems like everything passed so fast..
2009 wasn't a great year...
But then again it was kinda fun..

So BYE 2009..

And..

Hello 2010 =)

I don't know what else i can do anymore..
It feels like i've done the most i can do already..
I'm sorry i lied to u..
I'm sorry i did it again..
But i didn't do it on purpose..
I know..
Sorry cannot cure anything...
But i just really want you to know i love you..
And i need you..
Every day..
Every minute..
Every second..
Even milisecond..

I hope you know that somehow even if we argue..
Or fight like there wasn't another tomorrow..
I'll still love you as much..
I'll still love you like the day you asked me to be yours..
I'll still love you no matter what...

You know the feeling when something tickles you and your spine tingles..
That's how i feel when you tell me those 3 words..
The words i want to hear everyday..
I just want you to know..

I.LOVE.YOU.TOO

I have no idea why...
And how..
But it seems like me going to NS is starting to hit me..
Crazingly hard..
I thought i've accepted the fact that i'll be going..
I thought 'oh what the heck it's just ns'..
I thought i would actually be looking forward to it..

But it seems like that feeling is gone..
Yeah i might be exaggerating a little..
Everyone says it isn't so bad once you've get the hang of it..
But i have a feeling i'm going to hate it there..
Looking at the calender makes me nervous..
Seeing that it's gonna be soon...
Like i've no time to do everything i want before being happy to leave for ns..
Yes it may only be three months but many things can happen in that period of time..
Loads of stuff..
I wish somehow it'll never come..
I'll never have to go to ns..
I keep wondering why was i so LUCKY to get it..
Why was i one of them?
I just realise only bad stuff happens to me..
Yeah people might say good things always comes after the bad ones..
But mine..
Bad things comes continuously..

I don't want to go..
....I really don't....

Thinking about it makes me sick to the stomach..
I'll miss my friends...
Miss my own bed...
Miss being able to just lay around like the lazy pig i am..
And i'll definitely miss him..
I know i'll be able to come back on sundays..
But it seems like it just wouldn't do..
Somehow i feel like i won't be coming back either..
I wish i didn't have to go..
I wish my parents DIDN'T let me go..

I wish NS ever existed!

Whoever came up with the idea that girls have to go for ns is an idiot..
A pure sexist and brainless shit he/she is..
Come to think of it..
Would someone a girl of my age..
Actually stay here when there's a war on and fight huge men triple the size of i am with guns and who knows what shit they have with them..
Are they really that brainless to think that way?
If they do then BRAVO!They are the smartest shitholes ever!
Wow i never knew there were such brainless yet SMART people on the earth..

I hate this place..
And i f*cking hate NS.

Emz!
Yesh people i'm back =P
Not like anyone reads my blog but yes Emz..
I'll start updating again from now on..
But for now just a short post..
Toodles~

DAMAI TOMMOROW~
WaWee~ =D

It seems that there is sooo little time left till everything is over..
School..
Exams..
Time...

Time left with friends are getting shorter and shorter..
Until the time when everyone leaves..

I'll be alone...

Feels like there is still loads to do but isn't much time left..
Loads i have to say..
Loads i plan to do and yet to do..
It seems like every minute that goes by..
Is the minute i will miss having..

I'll miss school..
Miss my friends..
Miss the crappiness we had..
Miss gossiping in school..
Miss doing things that we know is wrong but do anyways..
Miss getting in trouble..
Miss everything we did together..

I'll.Miss.MEJA =(